Why I want to lose weight?

Hello everyone,

It has been a good few weeks the last time I wrote a blog post. Well I can say I’ve been busy playing on my PS4 especially on grand theft auto and just dance (helping me to get exercise in my life).

Normally I would do my blog posts on my IPad, somehow it got robbed as UK had a really hot day 3 weeks ago and I was out for the day but I forgot I’ve left my bedroom window opened too also my old laptop got stolen too, I had to buy a new one which I’m lucky I got the money to get one.

Anyways I don’t want to bore you as I’m meant to tell why I want to lose weight. Well I always had a weight problem even when I was a kid. I love food too much, who doesn’t? To be honest I’ve been trying to keep it off for last 2 and half years since I’ve got diagnosed with diabetes type 2 as it runs in my mothers side of family,  I don’t need metformin to control it since march 2016 as I done my best to change my eating habits also I have to go for a every 6 months blood test to check hows everything.

Well it has been a struggle to keep it off as last year I had really bad depression as I put weight back on,  been trying to stick on diet since mid January this year. It has been like a rollercoaster but I’m so determined to lose more weight as I’m going away to Benidorm in November which I want to be a UK size 14. I’m nearly getting back to a UK size 16, that where I was a year ago.

Right now I’m trying to control my calories and do exercises like doing just dance and going swimming also sometimes push around a bit my manual chair, that’s why I got a fitbit so I can track my calories.

Really want to able love my body and accept the fact I’m not a size 8 but I will have some chubbiness on my body as my goal is to be a UK size 12-14.

One day there will be somebody will accept me for who I am, I just need to focus on myself at the moment.

With love,you_doodle_2017-05-16t20_15_31z

 

Manchester Attack 

Hello everyone,

I really needed to talk about this as UK had one of the worst massacre in history especially it happened in Manchester as I live 20 minutes away. All the young people who went to see their idol Ariana grande on Monday night it should have been one of their best nights of their life.

It has took 22 young innocent lives away when they had their life ahead of them , it’s upsetting knowing they should have gone home to their families safely and talking about how much they enjoyed the night. It’s heartbreaking knowing somebody would want to kill young victims for anger when they done nothing wrong.

Seriously there so much hate in the world it’s unreal I do wish there was peace, no wars and no revenge. Power causes problems.

As 2017 the world should be amazing place to  live but there so much hate and evilness especially it has been going on for 1000s & 1000s years
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R.I.P to the young people have lost their lives in a horrible attack

Also hope the ones are injuried will recover.

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It was amazing to see people from the UK and greater Manchester actually helped and support everyone

I can say I’m proud to be from greater Manchester even thought it can be a shithole at times but it’s our home end of the day ❤️🇬🇧🙏
With love,

Mental Health 

Hello everyone, 

I’m going to talk about mental health as I suffer with depression, I was going to talk about it last week but I was having a up and down week.

I’ve suffer depression ever since I’ve remember that when I was a 12 year old, I remember when I started to feel worthless, unwanted and not wanted to be alive. I struggled with high school as I was getting picked on for the way I look, the weight, my disability and the way I am also I had many issues at home nobody knew what was going on as I couldn’t escape from my problems.

The only thing would help me escape from reality is listening to MUSIC.

No child or teenager shouldn’t have to go through many issues especially abuse when it should have been a good childhood.

I would speak to other teenagers online especially on website makers or YouTube even people I’ve met on holidays I could able to myself on msn messenger and cheer me up.

At 15 i started to self harm when I did it at the time it felt good to ease the pain I was feeling at the time. I would cover it all p wearing jackets and long sleeve tops so nobody noticed it. I’ve struggled on and off for self harming for good 8 years I haven’t thought of self harming for good 6 months.

Last year I was in a bad place as I thought about my past, worthless, ugly. I felt everything would be okay when I got in touch with my dad this time last year, but weeks into getting to know my dad everything hit me like a tonne of bricks, what  I went through which I though I deserved at the time.

I end up having counselling last October which it was as I had 12 sessions also the counsellor was amazing able to help me think differently. I will admit I did struggle at first 6 weeks as I would burst into tears when I had to talk about everything but it got easier towards to end as I accepted I didn’t deserve the abuse.

Now I can handle things better and let go of my past as I know it wasn’t my fault. I’m in a better place having my dad, Nan and good friends to be there for me when I need them. I do have my good, bad and ugly days but I know some people don’t agree with antidepressants but it really has helped me as I’m on 100mg sertraline a day. I’ll admit I will scared to go off them incase I go back in a bad place again even though I’m in a better place.

One day I’ll love to help vulnerable young people and disabilities who don’t have it easy abs need somebody to talk to, I want to be a youth worker, counsellor or mentor.

With love,

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Skinny bakery 🍰

Hello everyone,

I’m writing a review on skinny bakery, I’ve ordered a few things from them for the first time. Oh my god there soooo yummy absolute guilt free.

I end up eating all the flapjacks as there only 202 calories, I love flapjacks I haven’t had one in years as there so much sugar in them the skinny flapjacks are healthier, less sugar and fat. Definitely recommended to get those again.

I enjoyed them all tried one each from the picture, I really need to every single one from skinny bakery it so guilt free to have also it may be expensive it is worth the money 😄

The website is http://www.skinnybakery.co.uk

They have my thumbs up 👍

With love,

Birthday week🎂

Hello everyone,

I’ve been really busy the last week as it was my 24th birthday last Wednesday. It has one of the best birthdays to remember I’ve been spoilt by my friends and family, I’m grateful to have amazing people in my life 😊

All my presents and cards

Last Tuesday I went for a birthday meal with my Nan and bestest it was really good as I went to one of my favourite places

Me and my Nan, my rock ❤️


Well later on the day, two of my close mates done a house party for my birthday 🎉 it was such amazing night, too much fun and drinking 🍹

Few pictures from the party 🍰

I had to go college on my actual birthday as I’ve got a exam coming up which is next week, but I went for another meal with bestest and her mother, they like my second family always there for me 😊

Me and my partner in crime
Me and my bestest’s mother 💛

Also I went out on a night out on Saturday night for my birthday it was a good night, could have been better if one of my favourite places disabled toilet wasn’t broke the joys being disabled.

Then yesterday I had a chill day to recover my hangover, went to my dads for tea, the food was delicious 😊.

Now it’s back to reality going on  diet as I can feel I’ve put some weight back on from last week, well I’m trying to go on a no caffeine diet as I’ve got a overactive bladder trying to find ways to control it but I still be carrying on low sugar and low fat too.

Hope everyone had a good week too.

With love,

 


Clean bedroom💜

Hello everyone,

I thought I write a post on my bedroom and how I manage tidying it up, well I’m a girl loves clothes/beauty shopping 🛒, a girl can never have enough clothes 😂 .

I have too many I do a clear out once or twice a year I hate getting rid of clothes, I might even wear it some point but you never know.

It’s a struggle when I’m on my knees trying to pick up the stuff up or when I’m vacuuming the floor, which it seem to hurt my knees the joys having cerebral palsy.

Also I managed to tidy up my beauty corner up which it needed doing for a while.

My bedroom may look a teenager bedroom even though I’m turning 24 on Wednesday, I just love Disney, unicorns and colourful stuff.

Here’s the before vs. After pictures

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After 


I know it isn’t everyone’s standards but I done my best
With love,

Rochelle x